Week one

What I discovered on my first week off:

The first day was a bit depressing, it was a cloudy damp day. The kids were not home some I had a lot of alone time to process and grieve if you will, the loss of my job. For 24 years I had a place to go, a purpose, a goal. This was gone, it is now a part of my past. I know I'll move on however I also know that I needed to go through this process to move forward.

Traffic and construction. I can not figure out while so many are on the road and why construction is everywhere. During the week I ran a few errands what I estimated to take me a 10 minute drive was a half an hour with detours to boot.

Everyone is adapting. While I am thinking about myself and what I now want and need, I see that I am not alone. My husband is now curious as to how I'm spending my time, I think he envisions me on the computer doing nothing all day. The kids have lost track as to what day it is, being off of school and me home now.

How does it feel? This is the question everyone is asking. I am elated and thrilled that our income is now cut in half, NO. Is it worth not having the constant feeling of stress and anxiety? YES! I can breath, and that feels great.

Structure. I am discovering I do need some sense of structure, a plan for the day if you will. The few days I "took it easy" were non productive and made me feel lazy. The days I had a little to do list, I felt better.

Now what? I sit here trying to figure out week two.